At her first full-time job since leaving
influencing, erstwhile smoothie bowl virtuoso Lee Tilghman stunned a new
co-worker with her enthusiasm for the nine-to-five grind.
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She had once had what he wanted: flexible hours, no boss, a
devoted audience so rabid for her recommendations that she could command as
much as $20,000 for a single branded Instagram post advertising alternative nut
flours or frozen sweet potato fries on her 400,000-follower account,
@LeeFromAmerica.
The co-worker pulled her aside that first morning, wanting
to impress upon her the stakes of that decision. “This is terrible,” he told
her. “Like, I’m at a desk.”
“You don’t get it,” Tilghman remembered saying. “You think
you’re a slave, but you’re not.” He had it backward, she added. “When you’re an
influencer, then you have chains on.”
In the late 2010s, for a certain subset of millennial women,
Tilghman was wellness culture, a warm-blooded mood board of Outdoor Voices
workout sets, coconut oil, and headstands. She had earned north of $300,000 a
year — and then dropped more than 150,000 followers, her entire management
team, and most of her savings to become an IRL person.
The corporate gig, as a social media director for a tech
platform, was a revelation. “I could just show up to work and do work,”
Tilghman said. After she was done, she could leave. She did not have to be a
brand. There is no comments section at an office job.
“When you’re an influencer, then you have chains on.”
Tilghman, 33, recalled the encounter late last month during
a 90-minute, $40 Zoom workshop she held to guide other creators through the
process of leaving influencing. The existence of the workshop — a small
counterweight to the classes, seminars, and boot camps that promise to teach
civilians how to become influencers — indicates a new disillusionment on the
part of even the most prominent content creators.
For more than a decade, social media has carried with it the
implicit promise that with some combination of luck and incessant posting, a
user with no connections, no experience, and sometimes no discernible skill can
become rich and famous. In 2019, a Morning Consult report found that 54 percent
of Generation Z and millennial Americans were interested in becoming
influencers.
But the dream — as report after report and tearful vlog
after vlog have made clear — comes with its own costs. If social media has made
audiences anxious, it is driving creators to the brink. In 2021, TikTok
breakout star Charli D’Amelio said she had “lost the passion” for posting
videos. A few months later, Erin Kern announced to her 600,000 Instagram
followers that she would be deactivating her account @cottonstem; she had been
losing her hair, and her doctors blamed work-induced stress. In 2022, Kara
Smith, an Afro-Indigenous influencer who said she had been making $10,000 to
$12,000 a month on TikTok, decided to take a full-time job, hoping to be less
dependent on brand deals for income, she said.
Lee Tilghman in
Brooklyn neighborhood on March 24, 2023.
And theirs was only the kind of ambivalence that made news.
Other influencers faded without fanfare — teens whose mental health had taken
too much of a hit and amateur influencers who stopped posting after an
algorithm tweak tanked their metrics. Some had been at this for a decade or
more, starting at 12 or 14 or 19.
Tapering off from influencingIn 2018, at the apex of her social media success, Tilghman
endured modest cancellation when she announced a series of events in cities
nationwide. Ticket prices hovered around $500 at some sites; she called the
meet-ups “Matcha Mornings”. Followers fumed, accusing her of squeezing her
fans. Others dismissed the workshops as out of touch, even appropriative. The
criticism rocked her. Her obsessive-compulsive disorder flared up. She felt
paranoid and was afraid to leave her apartment. “That was the beginning of
thinking, ‘I can’t do this,’” she said. “I’ll find something else. I’ll wait
tables.”
Still, her post count never slipped. So it was a shock to
her fans and haters alike when, in a puff of ashwagandha, she disappeared from
posting in 2019.
Tilghman retreated from Instagram for five months — the
equivalent of eons, according to social media’s stopwatch. When she returned
that summer, gone were the well-lit food photos and adaptogenic lattes. She
announced that she had spent part of her hiatus in treatment for an eating
disorder. Her hair was in a bowl cut.
She posted less, testing out new identities that she hoped
would not touch off the same spiral that wellness had. There were dancing
videos, dog photos, interior design. None of it stuck. “You can change the
niche, but you are still going to be performing your life for content,” she
explained over lunch.
“You can change the niche, but you are still going to be performing your life for content.”
She moved from Los Angeles to New York in December 2020,
where her apartment broker — who saw the shift in Tilghman’s fortunes up close
on rental applications — told her she was nuts for quitting influencing. The
broker then admitted her bias: “I want to be an influencer!”
Tilghman slowed her sponsored posts. She was earning less
than one-third of her old income. When she was laid off from the tech job in
October 2021, she resisted the urge to post through it.
At the workshop, she was firm with the attendees that this
would not be a seminar about “de-influencing”, the new buzzword that describes
influencers who tell their followers what is not worth their cash. Nor was it
about anti-wellness influencing or mental health influencing. It was intended
to be a practical intensive, with a section on how to write a resume that best
frames influencer experience, and another on how to network. “For people who
are here who want to learn how to be an influencer, but with balance, I don’t
have tips,” she said. “For me, I couldn’t.”
Tilghman’s problem — as the interest in the workshop, which
she decided to cap at 15, demonstrated — is that she has an undeniable knack
for this. In 2022, she started a Substack to continue writing, thinking of it
as a calling card while she applied to editorial jobs; it soon amassed 20,000
subscribers. It once had a different name, but now it’s called “Offline Time”.
The paid tier costs $5 a month.
Anna Russett, a workshop attendee, marveled at how similar
Tilghman’s experience had been to her own. Russett, 31, worked on social media
for a big advertising firm in Chicago, while amassing tens of thousands of
followers on her personal Instagram account. Curious, she decided to go all in
on influencing just “to see what that would feel like,” Russett recalled. It
turned out to feel quite lucrative.
“It was like, if I do this one post, rent’s covered for the
month,” she said. It was exhilarating but unstable. She never felt able to
relax, and then she felt worse for not appreciating what to others seemed like
uncomplicated good luck. “It made me feel kind of lost,” Russett said. In 2020,
she found a job on the product team at YouTube. She now gets health care
through work and paid time off. She doesn’t wonder how she’ll keep her numbers
up while she’s on vacation.
She still uses Instagram, as does Tilghman, but Russett’s
last sponsored post is from 2021. (Tilghman’s is from the start of 2022,
although she said she did accept a direct-to-consumer couch in exchange for a
tag eight months later.) “I still sometimes fantasize about it, not having a
boss,” Russett said, thinking about the pull of influencing. “But I know it’s
not realistic; that’s not how it was, and that’s not how it would be.”
Her sister, Andrea Russett, has almost 3 million YouTube
subscribers and over 1.5 million followers on TikTok. She dropped out of high
school and never went to college. At 27, she is still on a path she chose when
she was in middle school. “It is this moment where it’s like, ‘Well, what else
do I do and can I do this forever?’” Russett said of her sister’s
deliberations. “I see it, and I’m kind of like, ‘Oh, thank God I didn’t go that
route.’”
‘Those skills do transfer’Casey Lewis, who helms the After School newsletter about Gen
Z consumer trends, predicts more pivots and exits. TikTok has elevated creators
faster than other platforms and burned them out quicker, she said.
“I’m happier now. I’m in the world. I have deeper friendships. I have a bigger social life. I get to do the things I want to do.”
Lewis expects a swell of former influencers taking jobs with
PR agencies, marketing firms, and product development conglomerates. She
pointed out that creators have experience not just in video and photo editing,
but in image management, crisis communication and rapid response. “Those skills
do transfer,” she said.
How to maximize the upside and minimize the toll that social
media can take is on the minds of even the most committed influencers.
Jade Sherman, who heads up the digital media division at
talent hub A3 Artists Agency, sees addressing those questions as an essential
part of her job. She has been working with several creators since their teens;
grown-up concerns are different. Soon some will want to take time off to have
children. Others have withdrawn for personal reasons, as Tilghman did. Even her
all-stars look to her for reassurance. She cannot predict how an extended break
will affect clients’ revenue and follower counts, but she can help them ease
back in. “We’ll set up collabs,” she said. “We’ll help however we can.”
After Tilghman announced her workshop, criticism mushroomed
in the comments beneath her post. She saw a tweet that summed up the negative
sentiment. It read, in part: “influencers offering workshop to teach people how
to stop being influencers while being an influencer for not influencing”.
“I thought, ‘This person doesn’t get it,’” she said. She
resented the idea that the workshop was a cash grab; she was not going to get
rich off a few hundred bucks in ticket sales. On Zoom, she raised the critique
before her audience could, tossing off a social media-hewn motto: “The girls
that get it, get it, and the girls that don’t, don’t.”
Over lunch, she was more reflective. “I do miss it
sometimes,” she said. After that first hiatus in 2019, she had briefly enrolled
in classes at UCLA and got an internship with an interior design firm, where
she made $18 an hour. It was the first time she had asked herself whether she
could afford to quit.
When she had come back to Instagram, commenters snarked that
her parents paid her rent. Not true, she said. She had run down her savings in
treatment. “But I’m happier now,” she said. “I’m in the world. I have deeper
friendships. I have a bigger social life. I get to do the things I want to do.”
Tilghman has not ruled out more events like the workshop;
she has also met one-on-one with other influencers for an added fee, helping
them chart their own escape routes.
But mostly, she wants a job again — a boring job. “Put that
in the article,” Tilghman deadpanned. She knows good exposure when she sees it.
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